// Fresh Start//

My mom has always told me I should get into writing. I could be whatever I wanted to be as long as it involved writing of some sort. I guess that’s where the interest to blog first stemmed from. So I did a little research: ‘how to blog’ ‘blogging for newbs’ ‘start your own blog’ and even learn.wordpress.com gave me the exact same advice… Pick a topic to blog about. Maybe I’m too used to Tumblr where I’ve just been randomly spamming my thoughts for a couple years now. But I still couldn’t help but feel overwhelmed the way I did coming out of high school when all my counselors were pressuring me to pick a career and go for it. I was 18 at the time, what did I know about life? Even now I’m almost 21 and I still know next to nothing about who I am, what I want in life, and when or how I’m going to get it because I’m still living it. So why do I need one topic for my blog? Why does blogging about only one thing bring readership? Surely to god my readers can sympathize when I say I have no idea what my blog is going to be about. It’s going to be about life, my life, the stuff that happens to me every day while I grow up. Sure I’ll blog about my interests and of course I could narrow those down for you: traveling, history, pop culture and film.  But after that this blog is going to be about me, it’s going to be my way of figuring myself out because I’m 20 and I don’t have all the answers. I hope that’s cool with you and I sincerely hope you still read my blog. At least we’re both going into this with no illusions- this is just going to be a blog about a university student figuring out the highs and lows of life. Maybe along the way we’re going to figure something out about each other that we didn’t know in the beginning.  But isn’t that the point of pseudo-enlightened blogging?

So this is me:

My name is Kyleigh Castronaro. I’m 20 years old and I’m a 3rd year student at the University of Waterloo in the Honours Film Studies program. I’m an only child to a single mother, my dad has never been involved in my life for as long as I can remember, I’ve lived with my grandparents, my aunt and uncle, my cousins and now I live in a house with a bunch of my friends. Ideally I want to be involved in the film industry when I get older, hopefully direct a few movies you’ll one day watch. Maybe I’ll even try my hand at acting, I always did enjoy high school drama. Most definitely however, I’m going to write a movie. Lots of movies. My head is overflowing with movie ideas that I want to one day bring to the big screen. In January I’m going on an exchange to England. I’ll be studying at the University of Leeds for 5 months and for three months after that I’m hoping to stay in England and work (and travel). I’d like to have this blog going in full swing by the time that period of my life comes around because ideally I’ll keep track of my travels for friends and family here.

It’s going to be a bumpy ride… Path’s untraveled tend to be as such. Like Robert Frost said

“Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.”

And there is some pseudo-enlightened blogging for you ;)

// money issues.//

so i just paid my tuition for winter term which wasn’t as bad as i had charted it out to be in my head. it was 3,094.76 which is good because i think i paid 6 grand last year but i was in res and that’s why i got shortchanged. but now my savings account only has like 4800 in it and i just converted what res for leeds is going to be which is between 3500-4500 canadian and that’s if i get into my first choice at the cheapest possible rate. i’m hoping that because i’m canadian and they know their pound is worth more than the dollar they’ll take that into account and give me the rate cos honestly? i don’t care if i live in a shithole as long as it’s a cheap shithole.

it’s going to be tight next year but i’m going to have like 2000 i think between credit cards to use and overdraft in my savings account which sounds good but everything is so expensive in the uk and i reeeeeeallllllly wanna travel while i’m over there because it’ll be so much cheaper to travel there while i’m living there than coming home and going back again right? obviously i’m going to have to be a lonely planet type tourist and just be stingy as shit which is fine- my mom raised me to be stingy anyways haha… but still, i’m nervous. i really need to get a part-time job for over christmas while i’m off for a month and can work for the whole month and you’d think there’d be more seasonal employment but i’ve applied to like 10 places and no one has called me back. i think i might go back to rogers if they’ll take me just for the month. i mean, i can only hope they will… well, i’ll give it another two weeks and once i’m done school if nothing has called me i’m going to try out rogers and keep my fingers crossed.

ugh, not to mention i haven’t gotten a subletter yet for my apartment and i really cannot, obviously, afford to continue to pay for my lease in waterloo. i love living with my friends but i’m seriously regretting signing that lease when i knew there was a good chance i wouldn’t be there for more than four months. fml.