// i don’t know if i’m going to make a lot of friends here…//

i’ve made a lot of superficial friends. like i have friends i can go to dinner with but i sit there silently because they all know each other so well that they talk about things i don’t understand, stories i wasn’t there for. i have friends i can depend on to take me out on weekends. people who will text me and be like ‘we’re going — come along’ and i’ll go out with them once a week but never talk to for the rest of the time.

but i don’t have friends i can just be like ‘hey, i’ve got to go shopping tomorrow wanna come?’ or a girlfriend i can hang out with a get ready with on party nights. i imagine that might’ve been holly but her phone is broken right now so i have no way of getting in touch with her. i feel like i should be trying more but like… the people i know will include me but they won’t like talk to me. if that makes sense. unno, maybe i’m just being overly worried and paranoid.